Contradicting Much?

"The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more that you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt." By Thomas Merton.
 
And I've found out the dirty secret of someone close to me, whom I shall name her as S instead to protect her identity. She really shocked me with all her wrong-doings, thinking that I won't ever find out.

But so sorry dear, I've found out your dirty secret and I won't be believing you ever again. I'm sorry, but I got to say, you hurt me more than enough, you betrayed the trust I once have in you, you pulled me down just to make sure I don't overtake you. You maligned me just to make yourself feel more secure, and lots more, thinking that I don't know.  I'm sorry, I've given you more than enough chances to clarify the things that you've inflicted me, but yet? You continue doing so. I've got my limits, I do have my own temper, not just you. Understand?

Looking back at those pleasant memories that I once shared with you, and seeing what you're hurting me now, made me realized that you're really good in acting. You hide your real self so well that I can't even see anything then.

Anyway, I've already chosen to forgive you, and act as if nothing ever happen, but, don't ever expect me to help/trust you again, like what I've always said, I can forgive, but I can never forget. Oh well!

This is just one of the useless post I've ever posted out so far, I can't vent my emotions on anyone, only here.

If things were to go back once more, I'd choose not to met you instead. You're simply too wicked and fake to all your friends.

Well oh well, I shall end this meaningless post before I start to post more dirty secrets of you. Hur hur~

"Fear less, hope more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Hate less, love more; And all good things are yours." By Swedish Proverb


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